Life is full of misery

Never post for past few days. busy. this few days i had been thinking about life. when im young, my parents dotes on me. cause everything i listen to them. especially mummy. im like a mama boy. should i return to the boy i am last time? then parents wont keep nagging or shout at me. but i will be time limit when i go out. life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering. i suffer the most, loneliness second and for misery , is last  

Emo

Looking back at the tears would make me laugh, but sorrow. looking back at th laughs might make me cry. bcos i miss your voice. i miss th days we're out tgt. i miss every single memories i had with you. and i remember every single word you say by heart. these 2 days had not been posting. raher busy. on sunday . hmmm i cant remember wad i do. but i rmb i went to work :D . then blablabla . nth much on sunday. ytd went pepper lunch:D it was so nice OMG. and thn went to slack at the tree hse play ground at IMM. we climb up and took photos. although the notifications put age 5-12. went home. i thought i will had insomnia . but then i slept @ around 5am. woke @ 8 plus. so is around 3 to 4 hours. i had nightmares  ): hope th night mares wont happen in realife or i really dont know what i can do. i miss her badly. but nothing can be done .

being emotional

looking at this. its from google once again. but it says totally whats in me. what a coincidence. loving u is not an option . meeting you is a blessing from god. knowing myself not good enough for you is my loss. i keep coughing nowadays. hoping that one dayy cough till i vomit blood again. and see which of th people will sad, which will happy, which will celebrate. one day if this really happens. take it as i just never exist in you before. and you'll be fine. but one day if she died. i will hang myself to death too. cos for th oni reason. i can't simply live without her. she is everything to me in life.

Love Is Life

 Love is Life. If you miss love you will lose your life
 too. to me i miss love. i miss everything. life become
 so sucks that i dun even feel like facing it, having
 a fake smile in your eyes, a deep cut in my heart
 . I believe everything is fated , you will be mine one
 day. maybe 5-6 years later or more? i will wait till
 the day comes. 19th may is coming. that date
 reminds me of something. but nothing can be done
 . peeps say my blog very emotional. some say
 is a good post. ya emotional stuff only will came
 out through my blog i guess. because me myself is
 emotional. i could tears when i watch tevee. so ya  :/
 will update blog again later  (:

insomnia

Can't sleep for 3 days. had insomnia. even if i sleep. oni for 1 hour or 2. Missing her is all i can do. today got back maths paper. it sucks. well looking back at her past message again. i do not know why . but i just felt good when i ever look back at past message. although did tears. but hais.. having cough again.. maybe need go hospital.. i scare to go there as anything could happen to me. if you ask me who is the one whom i scare i might not see again. i will say th first one will be her. . . dream of her almost everynight. although dream is short but still tears  ;)